I like and agree with a good deal of this.

But for many people — especially for people like me, who are ugly and fat (and I’m not fishing for assurance with those terms. I know who and what I am) — we build our worlds online.

At least for me, there is no “real” self off of the internet. I am my realest self when I’m not encumbered by a 500-pound body an a face that even a mother is leery about loving. I don’t try to hide who I am, but I’m a lot less weird-looking in a carefully-angled head shot than I am with my whole massive self — and people have found it easier to shun me in Meatspace.

The internet opens up a whole world of possibility, the possibility for friendships and relationships deeper than anything I’ve been able to experience in Meatspace.

And i have to admit, sometimes it’s difficult to reconcile those two things: people who use social media as a way to lie about themselves, and people who can only express their true being through a Medium (pun originally unintended, but appreciated and acknowledged) at allows the others to see the real them before being scared off by the body.

The real me is the poet, the writer, the successful person who always hearts your status and tries to boost everyone I can. Not the ugly, massive, barely-able-to-breathe Meatspace person who fails at so many basic parts of being human.

I’m sorry, this kind of devolved into a ramble. Thank you for such a thoughtful story and for making me think this morning. :) ❤