I think the reason that I compare myself to him so much is that he is an unmistakably horrible person, and has been for a long time: and, yet, he has a circle of friends and supporters, people that love him, and has been rewarded with a lifetime of financial stability, safety, and success.

I, on the other hand, try my hardest (and sometimes fail, I have no illusions) to be a good person. And I’m going to spend my life broke as hell and mostly alone.

How do you even make sense of that?