This is definitely the universe I want to live in. Even more than that, as an (fairly ametur without a shitstain’s chance in a washer of ever getting onto television) actor, getting a role on Grey’s or in the Shondaland universe would be a dream.

Sure, they did have an episode about a superfat patient that was a little iffy . . . but that was the mid ’00s, where House had a superfat patient breaking the MRI and falling on a doctor. I think Grey’s today would be a bit more humane to someone like me.

I love this so much. Because I feel this so much; especially as a person who has little worth or value in this universe. Belonging to a community where I could belong, where I provide real values to others, where I’m not a charity case, but someone who provides something of use to the world, with friendships and relationships.

God, I ache for that.