This was an interesting read. Failure is kind of a defining part for me, as someone who’s always wanted to feel like a part of my age group, like anything I had to say mattered to someone who isn’t 20+ years older than me.

Lately, getting old without having a lot of commercial, public success feels like a failure. Nearing 30 without having accomplished anything. And I don’t know if it’s a fear of failure when I’ve tangibly and honestly failed to meet those goals — I don’t matter on a cultural level, a societal level.

I’ve never mattered to a small group of people, to a community. I thought the antidote to that was to be a shooting star, someone that the whole world admired. But that didn’t happen, either.

And now? *shrugs* The hell if I know.