When Google MD is the Only Doctor that Listens

For superfat patients, doctors tend toward the one-size-fits-all answer: “Lose Weight.” But what if there’s something else going on?

When the stripes start showing up.

I’m fat.

Courtesy of the author. It’s hard for me to get photos of the swelling that are in context. But this is the lump above my right knee. It’s not a regular, jiggly thigh. It’s hard to the touch and has all of these bumpy things. It feels weird to share these photos…they’re just slightly lower (and more clothed) than a crotch shot.
Courtesy of the author.

So I started zebra hunting.

When I first started looking on Google, looking around to try to find something that fit my symptoms, I felt like one of those out-of-control patients on a TV show, trying to convince the doctor that their garden-variety cold was cancer.

I’m not sure of what to do.

I don’t want to be the crazy patient that walks up to their doctor with a zebra, when it turns out that I’m just fat and trying to find a way to rationalize my fatness.

(He/They) Ninja Writer. Thespian. Queer. Essayist, poet, novelist. “In Search of Sunflowers” available on Kindle now.

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